Job hunting

i have come to the conclusion that looking for a job sucks. i am so awkward and nervous and i just cant apply for a job without looking completely spastic. i dont know how to act dont know what to say and of course my parents are uninvolved as normal so they dont help me. they just put pressure on me and it freaks me out and i just dont know how to deal with it. i have no clue how to do this whole job thing and it freaks me out so much. i want and need a job but im so scared to get one. i dont know why but the whole applying for a job process just scares me. arggg i hate this

labels

so I'm so desperate for a label that i looked up the word indie on google. which if you think about it doesnt make any sense because indie means independent, so its all about being yourself. but any ways they still gave you a how to one how to be indie (makes no sense!) and surprisingly i was alot the things they said to be. but i dont want to do something just because its the kool thing to do or because it fits into a label (ever if i do want a label pretty badly. i think maybe it would just make things easier). but any ways it says things like reads classic books, is smart and uses big words lol, watches indie movies and listens to indie music. i do all those things but iv just been doing it cuz i like it. the only thing was they said you should wear light colored cloths and i say never! i like my dark cloths and my slimming black everything! i dont care if it makes me look emo i love it so :p! I'm going to stop trying to conform to a label I'm just going to be myself. cuz honestly I'm a kool kid, and i kind of like the person i am, well most of the time i do lol. but the one good thing i learned from my indie searching is indie jesus! theirs a picture of jesus as indie, he has a sweater vest with a button up shirt under it with sleeves rolled up, he had riped jeans and flip flops (which i dont really like cuz mandels freak me out! guys should not wear flip flops!) anyways indie jesus looked pretty awesome