robbie

im so fusturated and angry and just gahhhhhhh. i want to reconnect with robbie i do but what am i suppose to say, hey robbie i know you totally ditched me as a friend exactly when i needed you most but can we please please please still be friends forget all the hurtful stuff i said i was just angry with absolutely not reason, you had every right to abandon me even though i had been nothing but a good friend so can we just forget this last year and be friends again??? like hell im going to say sorry to him. im so tired of every time in my life when i take a stand for my self and dont take the crap everyone else seems to want to dish me that i get this whole reputation that im the bad guy. it happens every time and it makes me so angry. like with ryan, i broke up with him because he continually hurt me in every way possible and now that we are back together and we talk about back then all that seems to come up is how much i hurt him by leaving. are u serious???? with corey, he slept with me then dumped me but in his eyes i was the freaken anti Christ because when i told his friends what he did they choose to stop talking to him. and now its the same thing with robbie, he decided to stop being my friend when i was literally at one of the worst times in my life and yet im the bad guy for being mad about it. im so tired of this crap! of course im freaken angry!!! and it pisses me off even more that no one will just admit that i have a real reason to be upset. that no one will stop acting like im over reacting and that i should just give in and go apologize for something i have no reason to apologize for. and whats more i have never gotten a sorry from robbie, hes never just admitted what he did and just truly said sorry without all the crappy excuses. i honestly feel like i could forgive him if he did that, if he just looked me in the eyes and said he was truly sorry for all that happened but i doubt that will happen because again im the bad guy.