if i could i would

if i could say anything to my parents it would be: trust me. i know what im doing. stop worrying about my plans and what im going to do, because i am going to be ok. God is taking care of me. i know you dont really trust that explanation but God really did tell me to go to Alaska and if he wants me there i know its going to be ok. im trusting God on this and if you cant trust him at least trust me.

pathetic

this is going to sound super pathetic but oh well i have to get my thoughts out some how or else im going to explode. i miss ryan. he's down in north Carolina for this wedding this weekend and i just miss him a lot. i feel like i havent seen him in forever even though i saw him on Thursday aka. about 3 days ago. i just miss him so much. and i guess just he's been doing alot of stuff while hes been down there so he hasnt really been able to txt a whole lot so im pretty much going crazy. i know this makes me sound really stupid and like such a teenage girl but screw it i dont care. i am a teenage girl and i miss him. i miss talking to him, i miss being around him, i just miss him. it makes me worry about when i go to Alaska. i mean if hes only one state away now and i can barley keep in contact with him and i miss him terribly how is it going to go when im on the other side of the country and in a different time zone and much busier than i am now? im so worried about it. i dont know how i am going to deal with it, i mean i guess i will be busy so it will keep my mind off it but still i feel like im going to be going crazy missing him. i miss him so much.

why?

why must he still torture me after 6 months?

Corey

does he ever think of me? cuz he always on my mind. i feel pathetic i just watched a youtube video he filmed but wasnt in so that i could hear the sound of his voice. does he ever wonder about me? dout it