pathetic

this is going to sound super pathetic but oh well i have to get my thoughts out some how or else im going to explode. i miss ryan. he's down in north Carolina for this wedding this weekend and i just miss him a lot. i feel like i havent seen him in forever even though i saw him on Thursday aka. about 3 days ago. i just miss him so much. and i guess just he's been doing alot of stuff while hes been down there so he hasnt really been able to txt a whole lot so im pretty much going crazy. i know this makes me sound really stupid and like such a teenage girl but screw it i dont care. i am a teenage girl and i miss him. i miss talking to him, i miss being around him, i just miss him. it makes me worry about when i go to Alaska. i mean if hes only one state away now and i can barley keep in contact with him and i miss him terribly how is it going to go when im on the other side of the country and in a different time zone and much busier than i am now? im so worried about it. i dont know how i am going to deal with it, i mean i guess i will be busy so it will keep my mind off it but still i feel like im going to be going crazy missing him. i miss him so much.