help

help is the only word that i can think. i feel like I'm drowning. me and Corey are taking a break. he called it. he said he wants to figure out if what we have is real and if what we have is real love. it just confuses me. it brings to mind one of my favorite quotes:

and ever has it been that love knows not its own depth till the hour of separation

i love that quote and i know it is true but honestly its painful actually living it out. i know that i love Corey i know that. their are so many things going through my mind right now. their are two very different paths for me to choose between right now. i have no idea what to pick idk if i even get the choice.

today was awful i felt like crying every second. it got better when i got home and i was happy for alittle while talking to people and just being silly. but now as it becomes night and im all alone again i feel like im lost. when the silence of night comes i cant help but think of corey and how much i want to be with him. how much it hurts me to not be with him. i feel like im adrift in the middle of the ocean. i feel like the waves are crashing around my tiny boat and im not sure if im going to make it or not.