money

i know this is going to make me sound like a completely ridiculously privileged white girl (and maybe i am) but iv never had a problem with money. iv never really wanted for much and iv gotten use to there being a constant supply of money from my parents, not that i just got whatever i wanted when ever i wanted but if there was an event i wanted to go to my parents usually let me go. but this year i guess with it just been senior year and there being one zillion things to pay for money has been tight and i actually just had to choose between two events and honestly it sucked. i had to choose between prom and youth convention. i choose youth convention. i really really really really want to go to prom, iv always wanted to go to prom and it sounds like so much fun and iv waited all high school to go and its senior year and i was finally going to go but now i cant. im so sad cuz i was looking forward to getting all dressed up and dancing and just being a teenager but now all that is ruined. but i know that youth convention was the right choice because i know that God is more important than any silly prom could ever be its just i really want to go to prom :(................. i know God is important and i know that im doing the right thing but for me this is a big sacrifice. i know that thats stupid i know its just a silly dance and im being a completely retarded teenage girl but i want to go to prom so bad and iv really been looking forward to prom. i hate all of this and i hate myself and know dumb im being i shouldn't even be upset about this. im so stupid to be upset just cuz i didnt get everything i want. i like to think im different than the average teen girl but im not im just as stupid as most and im still crying over a dumb dance.