unoriginal

today i had a moment where i felt more unoriginal than i ever have in my whole life. it was the worse feeling, it was like knowing in the bottom of my soul that nothing made me special. it happened when my friend Dana told me about how when she came to school early this morning she saw Corey in his car with a girl. (his gf) no big deal right but the thing was when me and Corey were dating we did the same thing. we sat in the parking lot before school and talked. i don't know why it effected me so bad i guess its just the fact that i though that was mine and his thing. so it really hurt so i did the only thing i knew how to do. i did what i learned to do from the movie garden state when you start to feel completely unoriginal. you move your body in some weird way and make a weird noise and you can say you just had a completely original moment because no one has ever done that exact thing in that exact stop before. it helped a little bit to do that.