high school

so im tired of high school. im so done with being there everyday for stupid classes that dont have any real meaning but mostly i just cant stand the people anymore. im really tired of going to school everyday and hearing the new rumor that Corey has made up about me for no reason other than the fact that he likes to torment me. as well most of my friends i made this year im realizing i dont really like. yea that sounds kinda mean and its not that i dont think their kool people and all that its just i cant be myself around them. i just dont feel like i fit in with them anymore. i truly dont feel like i fit in any where anymore, not even at church. i feel like people at church have grown tired of me and my constant mistakes. i dont know its probably all in my head but thats what it feels like. God i feel like i write the same thing in here all the time, about how i feel so disconnect from everyone. i really need to find a real way to stop this crazy cycle of loneliness. i need to find a real good friend who i can talk to about everything and who will understand me. idk maybe next semester ill find someone like that.