some times

some times i feel like the most boring piece of crap ever. some times i wonder why people hang out with me when i am so darn boring. and it kinda makes me hate myself. i dont know not hate myself but just become frustrated. i cant feel the person im suppose to be and i know that person is pretty darn awesome but its like i cant get to that person. i know this sounds dumb cuz this isnt the reason that i have a blog or tumblr but when i see no one reads my blog and my only follower on tumblr is my best friend i feel like such a loser. i feel like im just so boring that no one would ever want to know whats going on in my head. but what makes me sadder is that i keep posting stuff because even though no one cares i want them to so bad.