fu fu

iv had this stuffed bunny sense before i was born, it was given to my parents the Easter before i was born to be given to me. iv slept with him by my side pretty much everyday sense i was born. i know a 17 year old girl should not still sleep with a stuffed animal but..... i do. i love fu fu so much and the idea of not sleeping with him is painful to me. my parents have never really pushed me to give him up and I'm glad they haven't because i dont know if i really could. my grandma on the other hand hates him with a passion and thinks i should have gotten rid of him years ago. i just cant let him go. to get ride of fu fu would be just as painful to me as it would be to lose a friend. i know i sound super crazy like one of those people who collect beanie babies and have a million stuffed animals placed all over there house but its not like that. i dont really have an obsession over stuff animals just fu fu. this is going to sound weird but hes my most loyal friend. he has always been there for me. in times when i didn't have friends i would have him with me constantly and i find my self carrying him around whenever i get lonely. i dont know how to describe it hes just the biggest comfort ever. his "fur" is pretty rough just from years of wear and tear but its the most comforting feeling ever and when I'm upset i just have to have him touching my skin. even his smell is just comforting to me, to everyone else he probably just smells dirty but to me he smells idk just comforting. almost every time iv cried iv held him and used him to wipe my tears and every time iv been sick iv held him tight. i love him so much and i have no clue how i will ever be able to give him up. i going to take him to college, it might be a little ridiculous but i dont know if i would survive without him there. especially being so far away and away from everything that is comfortable I'm going to need him there. my grandma thinks i cant give him up because i associate bunnies with my mom, (which is true, at her funeral there was a bunny and also every time i go to her grave a bunny is there. so yea bunnies already have a soft spot in my heart) but that's not it. fu fu is the one constant thing in my life, no matter what has happened or what has changed he has been the constant. and he has just brought so much comfort to my life. gosh i know i sound crazy going on and on about a stuffed bunny like hes real but he just means so much to me. i cant even fully put into words how much this dumb stuffed animal means to me. i just love him.