kirk

my brother kirk was going to church with me but now i think he is deciding not to. it makes me undescribable sad. i assumed (stupidly i guess) that he would be the first person in my family other than me to get saved. i was so happy to finally have another person in my family going to church with me. I'm always alone at church, i have the Houston's but i have no real blood family there. i want kirk to grow up to be an awesome man of God and i know that if he grows up with God he could be a really amazing guy. but i see the way that he is growing up and it breaks my heart. honestly hes growing up to be a jerk. hes mean to Kevin all the time and I'm pretty sure that he cusses when hes not around the family. he hangs out with people who are horrible influences. hes always trying to cheat people out of something. its so frustrating. kirk is honestly one of my best friends. OK maybe that makes me a dork that my little brother is one of my best friends but i see him that way. hes a really kool guy underneath all the jerkness and i want to be able to share the God part of my life with him. I'm just so frustrated. i wish i just had at least one family member who came to church with me.