so I'm actually a really sensitive person but most people don't know that. people that are really close to me do but for the most part people don't know. i put on this act like I'm just this really laid back person that doesn't really care about much and is never offended by anything. and yea i can take a joke, i can have fun with people and be good humoredly sarcastic. ( i don't think humoredly is a word but I'm gona use it any ways). but even though i can joke around with people and i don't take every joke seriously some stuff does get to me. usually its just little stuff, stuff that no body really remembers but i do. i take it all in and i feel the full weight of the blow. i will sit up at night and go over and over and over again what went wrong in a conversation even if the conversation was perfectly fine. i relive what they said and vow to never make the mistake again. if people ever bothered to notice they would see quite plainly the stuff that bugs me. if some one was joking around and for example said i talk to much if you paid attention you would see that from that point on i stop talking so much in front of them. i come up with these little rules for each person im around i remember what it is im not suppost to do around them. its crazy i know but i do it. i cant help it i just hate not having people like me.